This isn’t actual fiction, but a post about some fiction I’d been writing, and why I stopped.
The primary reason? I was not happy with the direction it was going.
Then I realized, I had started something that interested some people.
I apologize for stopping it so suddenly.
There are, much more icky feelings involved, too. But they’re secondary, and rather self-centered:
Other frustrations were involved, one of them related to the livejournal service.
I see more hate than love coming out of the people I care about on this thing, and it bothers me. And I don’t think it should. I know that when I see something negative from someone I care about, I pay more attention to it. No, it’s not masochism (not completely, anyway), but I want to know if I can fix it, somehow. But sometimes, I can’t see a way to fix it. They hate someone I know, and care about, but they have, in many cases, a good reason to be angry at them.
So I’m going to stop using this service for posting about anything other than me,, and I’m simply not going to read rant posts once I realize what they are. Even then, most of my posts will be behind friends lists. I have another place for posting (below).
I’ll post to those I care about.
If you’re in my friends list, it means you said/did something that made me care about you. I only recently started deleting people from that list that have gone away, or changed names.
Certainly, there’s people I hold in higher regard than others, and it’s those I put in an additional category. These are people I trust with my life, because I would put mine on the line for theirs.
There’s a few other friends lists I have. One of them is a game study. (in the political science sense) Another is a gaming group (it has the people I care about that are in that group, or once associated with it).
Most of the hate seems to be coming from that gaming group, oddly enough. I still want to give the company a chance with this new game.
The point is… I don’t plan on posting much anymore, but I’ll try to read more. I’ll comment now and then, when I feel it appropriate, but don’t take it as disinterest if I don’t comment on something.
Not that I don’t want to write. Quite contrary. I just don’t see this as the place for my writing anymore, but more for discussions. The mailing list is dead. Long live the livejournal.
But anyways. Here’s where I’ll be continuing to write it, with input from you, the reader:
Afterworld [mygamefactory.org]
If you’re interested in more about me, then comment below, and I’ll add you to a list. 