musings of wrath

Why is it when you *accidently* do something that hurt someone, they fucking make you have to GUESS what the hell the problem is?

I apparently hurt someone I deeply care about today, and I still don’t know how or why. We’ve joked about the very same subject that seemed to be the problem, but this time, it apparently wasn’t well taken.

What pisses me off is that when I tried to ascertain the problem, I got told that I have hurt this person before, and they’ve never told me this before - ever.

How the hell am I supposed to adjust my behavior when someone doesn’t tell me I’ve done something that hurts them?

I know, I’m supposed to “know everything that might hurt someone”, but you know what? I didn’t apparently learn EVERYTHING about EVERYONE and I can’t be aware 24/7 of what issues might change with someone; let alone what might hurt them one day, when it never has before.

Grr.

Some people have the idea that I like my job, because it deals with computers, and I get “toys” to play with. Let me clear this the fuck up right now.

I fucking hate my job. If I had a fucking choice, I’d NOT be working here, but there ARE NO FUCKING JOBS in Little Rock. There’s fast food, and fucking retail stores.

I fucking hate my boss. He’s basically fucked me over since day one, hiring me on as a fucking “systems administrator” and even giving me a nice little description of what I’d be doing.

AND I’M NOT DOING A FUCKING THING HE HIRED ME FOR. I’M DOING HIS SHIT WORK, FIXING HIS PROGRAMMING FUCK-UPS, AND NOT GETTING A GOD DAMNED THING FROM IT.

I’M NOT A FUCKING PROGRAMMER, AND I WASN’T HIRED TO BE ONE. I’m CERTAINLY not fucking PAID what a programmer gets paid.

Your Life Line reveals that you like to travel, but will always return home. You need a lot of space which is why you prefer spending time outdoors. You tend to have strong romantic tendencies.

Your Head Line reveals that you lack confidence, but have a sense of grievance. You carry a chip on your shoulder, but will vent this emotion through participating in political activities.

Your Heart Line reveals that you have a masculine nature and are easily aroused by your own desires. You are able to maintain a good balance between the physical and emotional sides that accounts for your warm and generous disposition.

Your Fate Line reveals that the early years in your life were full of hard knocks, teaching you that success comes from hard work. Due to this learning process, you will have a late start with your career and financial independance.

You have an Air hand. You are a person who is independent, intellectual, analytical and unpredictable. Your optimal career choices are to work as a writer, psychiatrist, scientist, detective and teacher.

I Am A: Lawful Neutral GnomeRanger Fighter

Alignment:
Lawful Neutral characters believe in the triumph of law and order above all else. It does not matter whether the leader is for good or evil; the leader will be followed, because the order they provide is the most important thing.

Race:
Gnomes are also short, like dwarves, but much skinnier. They have no beards, and are very inclined towards technology, although they have been known to dabble in magic, too. They tend to be fun-loving and fond of jokes and humor. Some gnomes live underground, and some live in cities and villages. They are very tolerant of other races, and are generally well-liked, though occasionally considered frivolous.

Primary Class:
Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.

Secondary Class:
Fighters are the warriors. They use weapons to accomplish their goals. This isn’t to say that they aren’t intelligent, but that they do, in fact, believe that violence is frequently the answer.

Deity:
Silvanus is the True Neutral god of nature. He is also known as the Patron of Druids. His followers believe in the perfect balance of nature, and believe that nature’s bounty is preferable to any other ‘civilizing’ method. They wear leather or metallic scale mail, constructed of leaf-shaped scales. Silvanus’s symbol is an oak leaf.

Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy ofNeppyMan (e-mail)

You’re the policeman. You protect the weak and
ensure that justice is done, all while wearing
really tight pants. Why wear a uniform if you
can’t have style? You don’t take any crap and
are more than happy to use your nightstick on
anyone who gives you lip.

What member of the Village People are you?
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