sigh.
May 8th, 2003Bad week, paired with a bad day.. yay
Ok, apparently, I’m some sorta asshole, and people don’t like me as an ST, because I allegedly show favoritism. Don’t get me wrong, the person said they like me otherwise, so don’t go thinking the person is attacking me or anything - I asked for it.
I also, apparently, am a control freak when it comes to the game - that I have to run it down to the point of XP expenditures. Sigh.
Why is it people put words in your mouth? Why is it they then run with those words as sacred and factual, and then hold you to them? Even if you can *prove* you didn’t say them?
Why is it people can’t grow up and stop the pettiness in the organization? I try to stop my own (everyone’s guilty of it these days, just some for different reasons, and at different times), and a member quits their position, and the organization. I be upfront, and state what I see as wrong, and I put my foot down, as is my JOB as CST, and I get crap for it.
If a player (who has helped out by running 2 games for a venue - one the ACST couldn’t make it to, the other the ACST just didn’t want to run) says to you, “give me the prestige for ACST, or tell the players the events of the last game didn’t happen”, what do you do? Take it, and just respond privately, or do you tell the chapter what’s going on, point it out, and say, “Look, it’s not going to work like this, this is how it’s going to work - ” and give the player the prestige (which was planned to begin with) and congratulate him, and then state “however”, this was NOT right, and NOT a good thing for him/her to do?
What led up to this? The CC report came out, and I saw that the ACST position had *changed* to her SO’s name, and he was listed as having obtained the position the previous month - I posted (over the same list where the report came across) that no, he was not ACST, I did not appoint him this. I had said to him privately, that yes, I DID say I MIGHT be firing the ACST, and that I wanted him to apply for it, and he’d probably get it - but that I would ASK for applications. After my post about the ACST position, I got a private email from the CC (his SO) saying it was inappropriate and disrespectful to post the correction over the list, and a private email basically telling me to give him prestige or else. So - I responded to his private email publicly, over the chapter list. I suppose I did it to make an example out of him - but that’s not really my motivation for that, I felt the chapter members needed to know that such a discussion was going on; their game was being held hostage, or at least he was attempting to.
Now we have no CC (she quit effective immediately), and he’s stepped down from the running of VST for that venue. What the hell? I don’t feel that I did anything *wrong*, or anything worthy of someone *quitting*?!? Get a spine, and tell me why I’m wrong, but don’t quit, christ. And people say *I* am overly-sensitive. I’m doing my job, and I know for a fact I’ve lost friends for doing it - and they quit at the first sign of trouble. I really really wanted her to remain as CC, and I think she makes an excellent one, with exception of her reporting timing - but I really have no room to speak on that, my reports are consistently out on the 6th or so, before the DST report, and last month’s was nearly a month late due to net access issues.
As a side note - this venue USED to be my favorite venue, it’s been trampled on since I moved to Denver, for me.
On top of all that, I find out that a check sent by our once-roommate-to-be’s aunt, to help bail him out/feed him/etc. for a few weeks until he found a job, was stopped. AS in stop payment. So, this good amount of money that was used to buy groceries, food for this roommate, etc, is now gone, and we’re a good amount of money in the whole. My paycheck came in today, but now - well, NEGLECt is certainly out of the question.
I’m gonna be there! Gonna miss ya!